HELLO!!

it's friday and im at home! one entire day to myself before the hectic weekend!
i have been having meetings every sunday for the past 3 weeks.
it's crazy man. my weekends are gone, officiallY!
3 presentation next next week though. and after that, i can have weekends for shopping and hi-tea again :)
speaking of presentations, it's week 11 already.
im truly amazed at how fast time flies.
second last sem in ntu! and soon, i will be another jobless graduate.
oh well, like what jo said, why shud u worry abt not being able to start work early when you will have to be working for the rest of life?
hmm so some how, my fears of being unemployed have been allayed to certain extent.
kinda miss those jc days, when A lvls r not that hard to handle and i was much much much more motivated.
shopping and hanging ard town after classes every single day. life was so good then.
it's as though i really know town like the back of my hand.

then again, im like so lazy now. SHIT. if i can admit this, it's not that bad right.
at least i know, juz that im not doing anything abt it.
the job market is really competitive out there :(
i never thought i will once worry abt getting a job. but now it kinda seems as though i am old enough to be worrying abt the unemployment rate, basic pay, employees' benefits, performance appraisal, pay cuts and retrenchment.
i feel so DAMN OLD :(
i feel so DAMN OLD :( (saying it once isnt enough you know)
and what makes it worse is that everyone is filling out job applications, going for interviews and joining competitions one after another.
and guess what am i doing?
shopping on vs, visiting fb, procrastinating to start on those essays for the whiteshoe gang at wall street.

onghuiqi hates working for people. i dont want to be just another employee.

and BYES!

felt the love <3
4:38 PM;

hello!!!
i cant believe im blogging again! erm after perhaps a few millions days?! haha
okay. im back. alive and kicking. ending my more-than-a-year of hiatus. glad to see me reviving this blog again?
cant exactly say that i am reviving this blog. but at least im making an effort right. hahaha. and i dont know how long im going to keep up w this before i mia again :)))

it's week5 alr, going on to week6 of my final year in ntu! omg. time flies.
i dont wanna work! i dont wanna sit in the office all day frm 8 to 6! howhow.

oh wells, what can i do abt it??!!

some updates abt my life!
this week is freaking busy. i dont understand whyyy.
i hv poems stuff tmr evening and im supposed to wear my club polo tee. but i cant find it (as of now)! SHIT!
oh yeah and going smu before that :)
thurs is school and the bain party afterwards.
friday is downloading and more downloading of shitty cash balances, activity and trade dates. stuff that i dont give a hoot abt.
weekend there are 2 meetings. i cant rmb which day of the weekend or whether is it in the morning or afternn.
and alex is back in sg. which means an exciting and fattening and calories-loaded food trail ard singapore for an entire day with daniel too. (but i juz cant seem to squeeze this into my schedule with hall3's dnd on sunday at rendezvous) but i cant miss my brotherhood outing stilllllll :(
tskkkkk. i thought i was a good organizer.
but look at my life now. it's huge, hectic mess.
oh yes, what abt the comex fair??? i gotta go get my beloved blackberry, hard disk, thumbdrive and mouse!!
freak. i need more than 24 hours a day this week man.
but im kinda looking forward to everyday though :))))

will try to update again. but dont kill me if i dont.
CIAO AND SEE YA :))

it's 090909 today by the way :D

felt the love <3
12:26 AM;

take a step back and u will see a bigger picture
that's exactly what i did. and yes it helps.

oh well, today has been a damn busy day for me.
woke up at some ungodly hour to go skool for a brief mtg (ON A SATURDAY MORNING!! omg im sucha nerd)
oh ya, profleehonsing actually rmbs my name. hahaha
after that had that usual thingyy in the afternn till at night and now im finally online, feeling enervated and all.
met sabb for a while at night, supposed to hv khatib mac supper w her, but we realised we both werent hungry at all!
tmr is gonna b another energyless day and monday i gotta wake up at like WHAT 630AM!!
life sucks.
when i first entered acjc, i lost weight waking up early and travelling to college during the first few months.
man, i think the nxt few months is going to be like that too.
not that im complaining, but i wldnt mind losing some flab.
who is the dean of ANN BEE ASS huh? izit our that bizlaw lect vvvaleriedutoitlowww or smtg?? what is the diff btw dean and associate dean??? damn all that complicated labels!
im gonna hv lunch w her on wed afternn, suddenly gt this strong urge to pon! sigh!!!! wednesday is my free day okay! and i dont know wth exactly is smart casual!!

ann says listening to happy songs will make me feel better.
but i think listening to songs which i can relate to makes me feel da best.
leona lewis sang that we will all get better in time.
but my favourite leona quek tells me that we dont want to get better in time, we want to get better NOW!
haha. to annjasyishperleonaalexdanahmadjonshaunzzhong: thankew for the occasional calls and smses asking me if i was fine. yes im good. thanks again even though many of u wldnt b reading this anyway.


But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

- westlife

felt the love <3
11:31 PM;

today is wednesdayyy (like duh!)
that means im so damn bored at home. i have the entire house to myself so often recently.
okay feeling bored and all. i decided to make shepherd pies today! with the help of my mama actually. i peeled the potatoes and that's abt it. haha the rest she do. then she started scolding me. im the one who wanna make pies and she is the one ended up making it.
i dont viwawa anymore. it's so damn meaningless now.
mayb i shud go do some homework but apparently my brain decided to go on a strike, i cant do anything abt it right.
omg. 7.5 more hours before i can watch my favourite favourite korean drama! that's about the only thing that makes me happy nowadays.

sometimes my brain juz cant help but wander to people and places and memories that do not matter anymore.
i dont know what to do!!!!
and guess what? i took out my old diary and wrote an entry in it.
the last time i wrote in it was like 16th oct 2006! almost 2 years backkk.
then i started reading juvenile depressing crying angry confused childish happy past entries. haha those issues seem so big at that time but now, i can even barely recall those incidents.
and i think i used to be so strong then. i cant believe that i actually encouraged myself in my diary last time. hahaha
so once again, i did the same time. i dont know if that makes me feel better. but i do hope that when i read it again a few days/weeks/months/years down the road i would think that being sad abt the issue now is so uncalled for.
my diary is quite thick. thicker than my blog i guess.
ann n jas migrated to livejournal alr. but the old onghuiqi is still sticking to her blogspot. why? coz lj is used for shopping. then again, shopping nowadays seem so meaningless too. why do i even need new clothes or shoes or bags now?

ann told me a damn funny thing. when ahmad told jon he talked to me for an hour and the entire convo was: be strong huiqi, jon said he can freaking tell me that in 5 seconds.
if i were there, i wld be: yeah u can say that in 5 seconds but most probably it isnt going to register in my head. u need an hour to drive that simple msg into my brain.
looks that my wonder brain is seriously considering retirement.


I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

- mariah carey

felt the love <3
2:33 PM;

talked to ahmad for an hour
haha dont know why but i juz feel much much better instantly
and pussycatdolls were right
i dont need a man. i dont need a ring around my finger.

i might be short but at least im stronger now

felt the love <3
10:30 PM;

felt the love <3
6:32 PM;

over you - chris daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

felt the love <3
10:55 AM;

im going crazy. i miss him damn damn damn a lot today and there's nth i can do abt it.
i miss him at 8 in the morning, again at 825, think abt him again at 910, and at 945 then at 1005, ... okay u get what i mean.

i wanna shut him out completely. and i wish i could.
i view his friendster and facebook like more than 20 times a day.
if he has like a million hits by the end of the month, all credit shud juz go to me.
tmr elective lecture. i shud juz pon.

life is like a straw.
coz it sucks.

felt the love <3
11:25 PM;

felt the love <3
11:21 PM;