today is wednesdayyy (like duh!)
that means im so damn bored at home. i have the entire house to myself so often recently.
okay feeling bored and all. i decided to make shepherd pies today! with the help of my mama actually. i peeled the potatoes and that's abt it. haha the rest she do. then she started scolding me. im the one who wanna make pies and she is the one ended up making it.
i dont viwawa anymore. it's so damn meaningless now.
mayb i shud go do some homework but apparently my brain decided to go on a strike, i cant do anything abt it right.
omg. 7.5 more hours before i can watch my favourite favourite korean drama! that's about the only thing that makes me happy nowadays.
sometimes my brain juz cant help but wander to people and places and memories that do not matter anymore.
i dont know what to do!!!!
and guess what? i took out my old diary and wrote an entry in it.
the last time i wrote in it was like 16th oct 2006! almost 2 years backkk.
then i started reading juvenile depressing crying angry confused childish happy past entries. haha those issues seem so big at that time but now, i can even barely recall those incidents.
and i think i used to be so strong then. i cant believe that i actually encouraged myself in my diary last time. hahaha
so once again, i did the same time. i dont know if that makes me feel better. but i do hope that when i read it again a few days/weeks/months/years down the road i would think that being sad abt the issue now is so uncalled for.
my diary is quite thick. thicker than my blog i guess.
ann n jas migrated to livejournal alr. but the old onghuiqi is still sticking to her blogspot. why? coz lj is used for shopping. then again, shopping nowadays seem so meaningless too. why do i even need new clothes or shoes or bags now?
ann told me a damn funny thing. when ahmad told jon he talked to me for an hour and the entire convo was: be strong huiqi, jon said he can freaking tell me that in 5 seconds.
if i were there, i wld be: yeah u can say that in 5 seconds but most probably it isnt going to register in my head. u need an hour to drive that simple msg into my brain.
looks that my wonder brain is seriously considering retirement.
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
- mariah carey 
